I'm having one of those "I want to quit life" days. No, I think I'm having one of those "quit life" lives. I'm already...this is going to be a day where I finally break down, I think. I just cannot even deal with one more thing right now or I am going to completely lose my crap. Not that I don't trust God will come through or that I don't trust him ( Read more... )

This morning I went to see my PCP to talk to her about everything that is going on. The lawyer I talked to said getting a letter from her could carry a lot of weight and I figured I really have nothing to lose at this point. I went in hopeful but I think I let myself hope unrealistically. She's going to draft me a letter about all the tests she's ( Read more... )

More doctors should be like my PCP and my Rheumatologist. Seriously, other doctors could take lessons from them. I got in to see Dr. Q this morning and she was just so sweet. We talked about my hands, how this winter was horrible and the last prescription she gave me didn't touch it. We talked about all this other crap going on and how it was ( Read more... )

Can I just say it's really disconcerting to walk into what you know to be an empty apartment and hear, "Hey, I know you!" coming from the living room? Like, um, hi. This is my home who are you and what are you do....oh. I forgot I had Spitfire as my desktop pony of the day and it's one of three lines she says. Just the timing was uncanny, man ( Read more... )

I suppose it's time for a real update after my Most Pathetic Voice Post Ever entry. To sum up I went to the doctor, not my doctor because she's amazing and everyone always wants to see her which I totally understand, but another doctor at the same practice. He basically told me it was nothing to worry about and was, for lack of a better word, an ( Read more... )

I just don't even know where to begin getting my thoughts down here. Let me just say my hands already hurt because it suddenly dropped a million degrees outside and I just jammed my pinkie into my file cabinet reaching for my slippers. Now my dad is the type of person who will drop a spoon on the floor first thing in the morning, you know when he's ( Read more... )

Today is much better than last night as far as my mood goes. I'm still feeling kind of down for no good reason at all, but all the crazy ragey feelings are gone. Progress is progress ( Read more... )

For the past few days I've had that thought floating around my brain. Mostly this is because I have not been happy for the past few days. In fact, I've been downright miserable and slightly depressed. I feel like I'm breathing through a straw. Like one of those little red ones you get at a fair or hot dog stand or something. Not quite a coffee ( Read more... )

I know a bunch of people wish they could slap me for saying that, but I really do not enjoy the hotter weather. I live in New Hampshire for a reason. Not because I feel like I was born here and will never escape alive. Although with my hand issues, I'm in pain in the cold or I can't breathe in the heat. I think I'd rather deal with the pain in my ( Read more... )

Last week this random rash showed up on my chest. I didn't eat anything new, wasn't traipsing about in the wilderness, nothing. It just kind of...showed up. By this morning it had spread to my neck. So, since my anti-itch cream stuff wasn't working I decided to call my doctor and figured I'd have to go see the on-call doctor. Happy day, though! My ( Read more... )